all i want for xmas

I just want this house to finish, :( , it doesn't feel finished and it doesnt feel right. 
C'mon FATHER ! wth are you?

days off

well well, i got saturday and sunday off, or this weekend off. currently its sunday noon, and i'm just listening music. being really bored, last night sonny and i met up with ashley then we three went to daniels house becuase it was his second party. and well, i didn't drink, i wanted to but i didn't so i dont know like i knew some people there but it was just a weird vibe. so after 2 or 3 hrs we three left and then decided to get sushi at sushi factory which was sooooo goood. i was stuffed, i think we all were. well thats all nothing exciting, dont really want to talk about my life right now.

broken everything.

hmm, lets see if i'd like to burst out all my feelings on what just happened to me recently? Maybe nowadays it seems like i've forgotten or acted like it never even happened, yet that's not true. not one bit. i'm devastated, nothing like this have i ever experience, it's not because they took the TV, it's just that someone i don't know or might know was in my house without my permission. knowing someone vandalized and trespassed a house. not any house ! my fucking house. it's so sad knowing something like that happened. In the beginning, i felt that now my house isn't safe, but gradually throughout the day which its been three days since the incident happened, i feel safe and fine all over again. I just want to get rid of this anger by finding them and beating the crap out of them, i tweeted that once, to show the world how much i hate whoever did that, haha. oh and i found out that my mom likes to talk shit about me? haha, that's cute. well i'll be ending it here, gotta get those serial numbers to my electronic stuff that was all stolen, damn asshole bastards, you have no idea how much rage i have inside me. kthx<3

yogurtland

i just got a new job at yogurtland like a week ago and we just opened yesterday. today, was my second day closing, and i'm getting the hang of it. My feet has been hurting, but i know i'll get use to when i stand a lot and what not. yesterday, i worked about 8 hrs, and it seemed really long for some reason and my feet was hurting like crazy when we were starting to close the place, and then today i work from 7-12 for five hours today, and my feet doesnt hurt as bad that's good, their getting use to it haha.
well seriously, im just really happy that i got a job, and i love working at yogurtland, the owners are super nice and down to earth so it makes the work enviroment really awesome. i mean a job is a job, whether you judge me and laugh that i work at a yogurt place at age 19, i can careless at this point. Im practically broke, and i'm currently staying with my boyfriends parents, which is okay but i feel uncomfortable, like im ruining their privacy. im seriously, very seriously broke. and i get so desperate at times. like today when i was heading to work, i was like dazing off or my mind wasn't in my mind and i had no control. all that i thought about was worrying about my financial state. how much i owe, on this, how much i neeed to spend for this bill. ahhh its crazy, and while i was driving, i would drift to the left side like i was drunk or something. crazy huh ? i know i know i shouldn't have done that, but it just felt like it wasn't me in my body that WHOLE time i was driving to work. weird, i know. well thats all my feelings for tonight.

haha oh and sonny mommy, marissa, got a halloween costume for yuffie my shih tzu puppy. it was angel wings and a halo, and the whole day she's had the wings on. and it's so cute. soooooo cute. haha but yeah thats all bye bye !